“I’m not a girl. I’m a storm with skin.”

That’s me.  I am an ever-changing emotional weather system.  My moods and outlook shift like the winds, one minute I am brimming with bright, smiley happiness, and the next I am a sorrowful, depleted and tearful shell of myself.   I think I have always been like this – high-strung, sensitive, emotional.  Things tend to always really affect me. And as the Mermaid that I am, I swim to the depths of my heart and soul, and in those caverns, feeling things so deeply, it takes all my strength to just breathe in my own darkness.  So intense and profound are my thoughts that I cannot help but to find a way to express them.  That is the creative artist in me. I am compelled to process what I feel, give voice to my perspective of my world. The storms inside me rage and are their own systems in that they have to work their way through.  I think all women are like this.  Some do not admit their vulnerability; some put on masks that give the illusion that everything is fine.  But the truth when I begin talking about my own experiences, my light rain showers, thunderstorms, violent lightning, tornadoes and hurricanes, and then the most difficult and completely unpredictable earthquakes, is that there is not a single woman who has not experienced something that rattles her very core.  Anyone who tells you differently is just simply not telling the truth.  I thought for a long time that it was just me that had these thoughts, had these doubts, questions about who I was or was suppose to be.  But we are all on that same journey. We all swim those same waters when it comes to discovering who we are and our purpose.  Every generation of women has had the very same questions and the very same experiences.  But no one talks about it.  Imagine how less isolated and fearful we would be if someone did let us in on that big secret, that we are all just storms with skin.

~jill

 

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Jill Alman-Bernstein

I Must Be A Mermaid is the blending of my own personal soul searching with the inspirations and insights that I first found in the community of like-minded writers, healers, and teachers on Facebook. I dove in, created my page, and found the courage to swim through whatever was in my path, giving voice to my feelings through my personal observations and writing, as well as of those that spoke to me. With my I Must Be A Mermaid blog, I will fearlessly dive deeper into the realms of my heart and soul, swimming through their waters as a mermaid immersed in the sea of life.

By | 2015-03-01T21:17:17+00:00 March 1st, 2015|More Emotional Weather|6 Comments

Stormy Weather

i'm not a girl, i'm a storm with skin.jpg“I’m not a girl.  I’m a storm with skin.”

That’s me.  I am an ever-changing emotional weather system.  My moods and outlook shift like the winds, one minute I am brimming with bright, smiley happiness, and the next I am a sorrowful, depleted and tearful shell of myself.   I think I have always been like this – high-strung, sensitive, emotional.  Things tend to always really affect me. And as the Mermaid that I am, I swim to the depths of my heart and soul, and in those caverns, feeling things so deeply, it takes all my strength to just breathe in my own darkness.  So intense and profound are my thoughts that I cannot help but to find a way to express them.  That is the creative artist in me. I am compelled to process what I feel, give voice to my perspective of my world. The storms inside me rage and are their own systems in that they have to work their way through.  I think all women are like this.  Some do not admit their vulnerability; some put on masks that give the illusion that everything is fine.  But the truth when I begin talking about my own experiences, my light rain showers, thunderstorms, violent lightning, tornadoes and hurricanes, and then the most difficult and completely unpredictable earthquakes, is that there is not a single woman who has not experienced something that rattles her very core.  Anyone who tells you differently is just simply not telling the truth.  I thought for a long time that it was just me that had these thoughts, had these doubts, questions about who I was or was suppose to be.  But we are all on that same journey. We all swim those same waters when it comes to discovering who we are and our purpose.  Every generation of women has had the very same questions and the very same experiences.  But no one talks about it.  Imagine how less isolated and fearful we would be if someone did let us in on that big secret, that we are all just storms with skin.

 

 

 

 

Jill Alman-Bernstein

I Must Be A Mermaid is the blending of my own personal soul searching with the inspirations and insights that I first found in the community of like-minded writers, healers, and teachers on Facebook. I dove in, created my page, and found the courage to swim through whatever was in my path, giving voice to my feelings through my personal observations and writing, as well as of those that spoke to me. With my I Must Be A Mermaid blog, I will fearlessly dive deeper into the realms of my heart and soul, swimming through their waters as a mermaid immersed in the sea of life.

By | 2014-02-28T16:46:39+00:00 February 28th, 2014|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|2 Comments

You Always Take The Weather With You

Have you ever noticed how the weather will sometimes accompany your mood, or determine it? This morning I woke up to a fog.  Ironic as that is how I felt when I finally fell off to sleep at an all too early in the morning hour.  I have been in a mental and emotional fog.  One that has layers and layers of feelings…pain, heartbreak, sadness, worry, despair, confusion… I hope and have faith that my personal fog will break, lift, and clear as the sky might itself, to a sunny canopy of light and clarity.  The weather has a way of supporting me, helping me to sit where I may need to be in order to process an aspect of my journey, or nudging me forward, informing me that it is time to move on, to brighter skies.  Watch a weather system.  Watch how the clouds move.  Watch the rain coming in off the shore.  Watch the wind.  Watch the fog roll in and out.  Like the tides and the sunrises and sunsets, the weather has its own flow.  We are each our own weather system.  We are our own storms and rainbows, our hearts and emotions volatile and vulnerable under a veil of fog and light.

take the weather with you

Jill Alman-Bernstein

I Must Be A Mermaid is the blending of my own personal soul searching with the inspirations and insights that I first found in the community of like-minded writers, healers, and teachers on Facebook. I dove in, created my page, and found the courage to swim through whatever was in my path, giving voice to my feelings through my personal observations and writing, as well as of those that spoke to me. With my I Must Be A Mermaid blog, I will fearlessly dive deeper into the realms of my heart and soul, swimming through their waters as a mermaid immersed in the sea of life.

By | 2014-02-05T23:28:39+00:00 September 8th, 2013|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|0 Comments