Finding Your Intuitive Self

Find a comfortable and quiet spot. Close your eyes.  Place your hands over your heart.  Take a slow, deep breath.  Pause at the top of your inhale for a brief moment – become aware not that you are holding your breath, but of peace, of calm filling your lungs and chest. Blow the breath out oh so slowly and when you get to the bottom of your breath, once again pause, just for a moment, and then let your breath begin again….. a slow, deep breath….. this time inhaling a fog of pleasing color, a positive and joyful hue… a color that brings you courage, love, contentment, peace ….. keep breathing….. inhaling the color, letting it fill your lungs and chest, exhaling only to inhale more, allowing the color you choose to get stronger, more defined with each cycle of conscious breath.   

I have found that the ritual and practice of connecting with one’s self is the most important piece in tapping into intuition. When we consciously breathe, we are committing to ourselves. We are taking deliberate breaths and steps to oxygenate every part of our mind and body.  We are saying, “I’m alive!” “I am vibrant with energy.” With every conscious breath we are able to attune to the sensing, sight, and vision of all that is in and around us. It provides us with the exact amount of energy and conscious awareness for us to connect with our “within” – our mind, body, heart, and soul. This same energy connects us with the angels and spirits that are within our call.  And it is the path to recognizing our intuitive selves. 

Personally, I find the combination of conscious breath and conscious movement to be the magical recipe to feel open, receptive, and connected.  I do simple movements synchronized to my breath. Try this:  In a comfortable stance, first take a breath, and then on the exhalation, allow your body to gently shake off all the unwanted feelings and energy.  Do that two more times.  Now, with your hands in prayer/namaste position at your heart, inhale and let your gaze follow your hands as they reach to the sky; exhale and open your arms out to the side stretching your fingertips as far as you can; inhale and circle your arms down, one arm crossing over the other at the wrists as they circle up and open, gaze and arms now reaching back up to the sky; exhale, bringing palms together in prayer/namaste position back down to the heart.  Do that a few times each morning – before you start your “to do” list, before you get crunched and stressed.  Do it bare footed, it will help ground you.

A simple daily routine of morning breath and movement, of invocation and prayer, of intention and affirmation is a wonderful way to practice connecting to your intuitive self. And there is a bonus!  A regular practice proves to not only sharpen your ability to know and trust your instincts and insights, but also lowers stress and anxiety, and helps you develop resilience and a positive outlook.

Conscious breath and movement – the way to start each day, the way to your intuitive self, the way to your soul. 

By |2019-11-15T09:45:34-05:00November 14th, 2019|Dive Deeply|0 Comments

WTF Universe?

The truth is, it is hard and scary to dive deep into your self, into your soul.  We are complex individuals, with emotions and energy and all that goes with our embodiment of this life. 

I remember when I first saw Anais Nin’s quote:  “I must be a mermaid.  I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.”  I embraced it as my mantra.  My north star.  My guiding light in diving into my stuff – past and present so that I could experience transformation in my next steps, my future. 

Intentions are almost always good and inspire positive movement, but I found it difficult to maintain that frame of mind, those guideposts of reference where I not only dove into my heart and soul and exposed the intricate webbing and cracks of my experiences and being, but then served it up in the shape of social media posts and blog entries for others on a similar journey to gasp, “A Ha!,” and know they were not a lonely traveler but had company in their heartbreaks, trials, and tribulations.

Six and some odd years later, I find myself frozen – not able to dive at all, whether shallow or deep.  The fear, sometimes paralyzing, impairs my brain from computing what the pieces of the puzzle are, stops my heart from wanting to live another day in this confusion and frustration of what my life has turned out to be.  It is a mortal battle for my soul.  The waves of life that I so often write about are crashing around me, the tides and currents pushing and pulling.

I can’t see the light sometimes.  I know it’s there…..

I know that my feelings of sadness and depression, that the ‘I don’t want to,’ ‘can’t do this anymore,’ are but a wave that will refresh itself as it kisses the shore and then retreats to be part of the big picture once again. 

Do you ever throw your hands up to the sky and ask, “WTF Universe?”

I use to say in my most intense moments of ‘I’ve had it,’ “I hate my fucking life.”  My therapist was not happy that I said that, and she was quick to point out that it was my fucking life at the moment, and that it will change, that I had the ability to change it, for change is inevitable.  The other day I was watching Grace and Frankie – Season 4, and (spoiler alert!) Grace in a moment of utter frustration with a situation says, and I quote, “I hate my fucking life!”  I actually texted that to my therapist as if to say, see?, I am not the only one that feels that sense of despair. 

So really, “WTF Universe?”  I am in continual motion to examine the questions of why am I here, why are we all here, what am I suppose to be doing with this f’n life, and what can I do to make it better.  And that’s where we get back to the Anais Nin quote and the no fear of depths.  We don’t really want to live in the shallows, the superficial, the inauthentic.  We want to live deeply, love fully, experience our life in all its throws and storms and loveliness too.  I look at everyone around me and see that none of us are here gliding effortlessly through this life journey.  Everyone has some burden, some upsetting circumstance, some difficult challenge. Some have unimaginable obstacles to manage.  The point is, we all have our things to face and deal with. And it is in those moments of facing our stressful situations that we must realize and accept the uncomfortable circumstances, for that is where the light is, the growth, the progress.

And that’s why we are here – today, now, as human beings, on this earth, at this time.  We are in one big soul growth experience – sometimes it feels like one big shit storm, or a wave crashing so hard that it takes all the life and breath out of anything in its wake. 

But we rise up – a popular phrase these days… We rise up to meet our challenges.  We find the way to our heart and soul and to live the best way we can, guide our children, love our family, listen to our friends and support them as they speak about their journeys, be grateful for what we have, and most importantly, love ourselves.  It is up to us to pierce the shallows of our heart and soul and dive deeply into that which may challenge or scare us.  Because it is in those depths that we truly find ourselves, and realize that this life, no matter what the universe throws to us, is ours – to live, to enjoy, to own. 

Submerge yourself in the depths of your soul…

I had always been intrigued by Anais Nin’s quote, “I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.” The idea of diving deep into life, not wanting to live on the surface, and really understanding what was in my heart and soul, was a driving force in my creating this blog, and to how I would ultimately pursue my dreams and passions in life. So here I am, submerging myself in the depths of my soul… listening to the quiet stillness… the silent echoes… transforming with each moment.

By |2018-10-16T10:28:03-04:00March 13th, 2016|More Emotional Weather|3 Comments

Sometimes you just have to say, “It is what it is.”

“Take things as they come.” “Be present.” “Live the moment.”

All great drops of advice and all important to having peace in your heart. So why is it that we have such a difficult time doing them? Many of us analyze, over analyze, think, and over think why certain events and relationships happen in our lives. We are stuck on not only the fact that they happened, but on the why. After all, everything happens for a reason. But is it so important to know that reason Can’t we just accept that it happened and look for what it has shown us, taught us, and how it has helped us grow?

If there was ever a statement that strongly resonated with me it would be Caroline Myss’ words: “Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.” I spent years trying to find the reason why something happened, why I made the choice I did, why things had worked out as they had. It was so painful and I suffered greatly. Living in the past or holding on to a fantasy is such a waste of energy. And it causes great hardship. Trying to decipher all the meanings in our personal universe is exhausting and we may not find all the answers we seek, or want for that matter. The search could be enlightening, but most often we feel anguish, sadness, and heartbreak when we remain in that search for the reasons why.

We all make mistakes. We all experience some emotional trauma. We all suffer. But we have the power, the choice, to free ourselves from that pain. I have often joked with friends about how it is time to get off misery road, that it is within our power to change the trajectory of our lives. We must choose to be vigilant and redirect our thoughts away from the questions of why something happened, why a relationship soured, why a person is the way they are, why a job didn’t work out, why we had to lose a loved one… why our life is the way it is. The best thing we can do for ourselves is give up the need to know why things happen as they do and just accept that they did, that they are as they are now. Just accept and allow the lesson. I dislike the expression, “It is what it is,” but it is the truth, and I find myself thinking or saying those words a lot lately.

So turn off of misery road and turn on to the road of joy, of happiness, of contentment, and of peace. Turn off your wondering mind. Cease the inquiry. Give up the need to know the why and concentrate on what is – focus on the present moment, and then focus on each subsequent moment as you experience life.

“Take things as they come.” “Be present.” “Live the moment.”

Peace of mind and soul can be yours. It is your choice.

By |2018-10-25T12:54:05-04:00March 4th, 2016|More Emotional Weather|2 Comments

Life Ever-shifting

I have always loved kaleidoscopes, my eye taking in all the ever changing shapes and colors. Life is like that too… the patterns, the lightness and darkness of our days… All it takes is that twist of hand, that shift of perspective, the ever so slight altering of something to bring about a change. A deep relaxed breath… a stretch of the arms towards the sun… an opening of your heart… Life is ever-shifting, each moment offering an opportunity to change and alter our outlooks and outcomes.

By |2018-10-16T10:33:16-04:00September 6th, 2015|Quotes and Thoughts|0 Comments

To That From Which We Came

We begin our very physical existence in water. It is in the womb that we are surrounded by the gentle, soothing fluid that allows our consciousness to develop, our human-ness to form.

There is something so beautiful, natural, and serene about being one with the nature of life itself. There is an inherent truth to an integral return to that from which we came, that from which we developed and discovered ourselves, that from which our consciousness is at home and one with. It is the very nature of our mermaid soul…

Returning to our natural states is as necessary as the air we must breathe to live, as the sustenance we require to exist as a complete and conscious body. It is there that we can awaken to our greatest power and potential.

Life crashes us with its thunderous surf. It lulls us with its tides. It pushes us with its currents. We only need to look at the waters to understand the vulnerability and strength within us. We only need to dive deeply into where we came from to recover the treasures that are within our hearts and souls. 

Breathe and anchor yourself in the rush of each present wave… surrender to the flow… allow the sea to carry you, just as it did at your very beginning.

Breaking Your Emotional Codes

Each day is supposed to be a new day, filled with new opportunities, and new choices. But for so many of us, each day is a repeat of the one before.  We have the same feelings about things, the same responses, the familiar cycle is like a loop – the same song repeating itself over and over, and like in the movie Groundhog Day, we try desperately to remember what we want to do differently, and hope that we can shift things just enough to change the outcome of our day.

We all have patterns that we seem to repeat over and over again. We get stuck in the same cycles day after day and though we reach for thoughts and ways to alter our feelings and outcomes, most of the time we are unsuccessful at effecting change.  There are many tricks that one can use to help shift that pattern.  (more…)

By |2018-10-24T12:02:09-04:00February 8th, 2014|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|5 Comments

Shifting to Our Higher Self

I read somewhere that each incarnation is just a different aspect of our self, perhaps another version, or even a better vestige of who we are meant to be.  It is an interesting perspective with regard to past lives.  That with each lifetime, we become more invested in our soul and its journey, exploring unknowingly each contract and path, with an open heart and eye, and with the knowledge that all of our aspects will in the end come together, and we will evolve into one enlightened being, that we will fold or merge in to our higher self.

I have this image of multiple me’s. Like when you stand between two mirrors – a mirror in front of you and behind you – you can see a hundred images of yourself, each fragmented in your limited perception, as you cannot fully see every one of you.  I began to think of the soul as an accordion.  Each fold another experience, another aspect, age.  (more…)

By |2018-10-24T11:59:52-04:00January 8th, 2014|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|1 Comment

Awakening to Our Heart

We are all in the universal stream of life. Like the sea life and vessels that enter the Atlantic Ocean’s Gulf Stream and allow the current and energy wave to carry them along, we all, each of us, enter the stream and through our personal growth and development, then experience our spiritual growth in our personal journey for our soul’s awakening, our transformation. (more…)

By |2018-10-24T11:53:22-04:00November 8th, 2013|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|0 Comments

The Waves of Life

Revelations are the keys to our change. They allow us to see our world with clarity through the veil of haze and fog – so thick and dense that we often feel like we are gasping for breath. And breathing is critical. Deep, resonant, soul filling breaths that nourish and assist us in moving through our blocks, enabling us to first profoundly feel those things that have been scaffolding us yet now need to be torn down, or out, or apart, so that we may shed tears and release those aspects that tie and bind us to the present, or past, that stop us from shifting to our next shape.

But we indeed shift. We transform ourselves from what we were to what we are to what we want to be, what we dream to be. We shift as the tides shift the sand. The waves of life sculpt our shorelines and reveal the very foundations that lay beneath our deep, dark, still waters.

We do not magically take our new shapes. It is only through great courage and determination that we can search deeply in our hearts for the forgiveness and love necessary to evolve and embody our truest forms.

By |2018-10-16T10:26:54-04:00August 18th, 2013|Emotional Weather on the "8's"|4 Comments
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