I find myself searching. I find myself, searching. Searching for a light, a path, a way to personal peace, serenity, happiness. The sun rises and the skies brighten; yet I awake with a heavy heart, my soul unsettled, it questions. With both feet on the ground now I take stock of how I feel. My muscles and joints ache. There is sadness in my heart. And so I begin the daily search – I breathe, deep breaths, to cleanse my soul, cleanse my energy. I reach my arms to the heavens to stretch my physical form, allowing my very breath to infiltrate and then fill every cell with the purity of the love that I hold within. I feel somewhat centered now and so move on with my day. But there is still that scent of sadness. It is as if there is on one shoulder, my left, a bubble of happiness, and on the right, one of sadness. And it is so much easier to look to the right. And when I do, I find sadness just sitting and waiting.
I have tried many paths, searched for answers, solutions, ways to stave off the sadness, find happiness, heal my heart. I have searched with astrology, numerology, psychic readings, channeled readings, shamanic healings, energy clearings, Akashic Record Readings, past life readings, Jin Shin Jyutsu, yoga, meditation, aryuveda, Chinese medicine, and Marconics. I search for a pathway that allows me to successfully search and find myself. All of these pathways provide a light to our deepest insight, our deepest dreams, our deepest darkness. They are all in their own right miraculous in that they do for those moments in time somehow break through and shatter the sadness, helping to balance and align the mind, body, and soul, allowing new insight and perspective, and often a new outlook on life itself.
The searching and finding is a process, a journey, a metaphor for life. If we live presently in each moment, search moment to moment for that peace, serenity and happiness, we can be at ease with our life and ourselves. We can turn our heads to the left, and live in that happiness bubble – because in the present there is no worry or anxiety about what is coming or what may be, there is only what is. We are truly capable of breathing in love and balance. We can taste presence, and the greatness we hold for ourselves within. So search. Search high and low. Do not leave any path untried. Search the heavens and the stars and the oceans and the shores. Search deeply within. And find yourself.
Resources for healing:
Jin Shin Jyutsu – https://www.jsjinc.net/
Marconics – http://www.marconicrecalibration.com/